ChouChou SIM in Second Life

Seriously I spent hours in this SIM its... amazing.. simplicity never looked so breath taking. Im very proud of this series.. Its also one I hold very close. This SIM brought out alot of emotion in me and in my honest opinion I think it reflects on these pics. For me its the best I have ever done. Here are the first 6...

Scared of Lonely...

I'm in this fight and I'm swinging and my arms are getting tired. I'm trying to beat this emptiness but I'm running out of time. I'm sinking in the sand and I can't barely stand. I'm lost in this dream, I need you to hold me. I'm scared of lonely. I try to be patient but I'm hurting deep inside. And I can't keep waiting, I need comfort late at night. And I can't find my way, won't you lead me home? 'Cause I'm lost in this dream, I need you to hold me. I'm scared of lonely. And I'm scared of being the only shadow I see along a wall. And I'm scared of the only heart beat I hear beating is my own. And I'm scared of being alone, I can't seem to breathe. When I am lost in this dream, I need you to hold me. I'm scared of lonely, I'm scared of lonely. I cry at night 'cause my baby's too far to be by my side. To wipe away these tears of mine so I hold my pillow tight. To imagine you I'll stretch your hand looking for mine. 'Cause I'm lost in this dream, I need you to hold me. I'm scared of lonely. And I'm scared of being the only shadow I see along a wall. And I'm scared of the only heart beat I hear beating is my own. I'm scared of being alone, I can't seem to breathe. When I am lost in this dream, I need you to hold me. I need your break when nobody is around. 'Cause I'm tired of this emptiness. I think I'm drowning, I can't be lonely. And I'm lost in this dream, I need you to hold me. I'm scared of lonelyAnd I'm scared of being the only shadow I see along a wall. And I'm scared of the only heart beat I hear beating is my own. And I'm scared of being alone, I can't seem to breathe. When I am lost in this dream, I need you to hold me. I'm scared of lonely. And I'm scared of be the only shadow I see along a wall. And I'm scared of the only heart beat I hear beating is my own. And I'm scared of being alone, I can't seem to breathe. When I am lost in this dream, I need you to hold me. I'm scared of lonely, I'm scared of lonely.

[Beyonce - Scared of Lonely Lyrics]

What do you come home to?...

It's been said that the saddest thing a person will ever face is what might have been. But what of the person who's faced with what was.. or what may never be.. or what can no longer be.. Choosing the right path is never easy. It's a decision we make with only our hearts to guide us. But sometimes we find our way to something better. Sometimes we fight through the regret and the remorse of our mistakes.. our malice and our jealousy.. and the shame we fell for not being the people we are meant to be. And that's when we find our way to something better.. or when something better finds it's way to us.

Rest of our Life..

The rest of you're life is a long time... and wether you know it or not it's being shaped right now. You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate... or bad luck... or bad choices. Or you can fight back Things aren't always gonna be fair in the real world. Thats just the way it is. But for the most part you get what you give. Let me ask you all a question... whats worse... not getting everything you've wished for... or getting it, but finding out it's not enough? The rest of you're life is being shaped right now... with the dreams you chased... the choices you make... and the person you decide to be... the rest of you're life is a long time. And the rest of you're life starts... When?

First Life and the Second..

Ode to Second Life

-Its starts with a quiet hum an empty screen inviting you in. "Come inside" it says "We are always open". It's a world where you think actions have no consequence and quilt is a quote for anonymity.Where there are no fingerprints, an invisible universe filled with strangers interconnected online and disconnected in life. It will steal your secrets and corrupt your dreams and co-opt your identity cause in this world where you can be anything you can be anyone you want. You just might loose sight of who you really are...M.Cazenove

Soul Suckers - Amos Lee

Did you believe it,when they told you they discovered you?

And that everything is free,as long as you do what they tell you to.

You think it's true?

But nothing could be farther from the truth,my love.

Did you even listen,When they told you to change your name?

And that nobody wants honesty when looking at a perfect frame

Play the game.Nothing could be further from the truth,my love..

And nothing is more powerful that beauty in a wicked world.

Play it girl, play it girl, play it girl.

Does it make you feel good,when they tell you what you want to hear?

And after they suck all your soul,well that's when they'll disappear.

Disappear. They disappear forever..Like a prince in your little fairy tale.

And you will find,one day you put you soul on sale.

Nothing could be further from the truth,my love..

And nothing is more powerful than beauty in a wicked world.

Music is my Boyfriend..

Music... god where to begin. Its amazing its everything to me I might not be able to create it myself but to support it is just as amazing, I think. I think music has an incredible way of bringing people together. Ive been to so many concerts and I can't tell you how cool it is to see so many different types, diverse, crowds come together for the love of a certain artist or band. Hope music brings people together for great causes exe: Live Earth, UNICEF Concerts, JUBILATE, LifeBEAT, god its an amazing organization! if you havent heard of it you can read about it at lifebeat.org. I mean the whole "VOTE or DIE" movement got so much of our youth to get involved in making "our free world" better into getting involved in the politics that make it happen got them into realizing what our troops go through and the significance of what they are doing. What about Russell Simmons HIP HOP SUMMIT... It uses music to serve as a catalyst for education and societal concerns fundamental to the empowerment of youth. What about BONO omg! if it wasnt for him and all the other muscians, artist, celebrities that have followed in his footsteps and the movement he started would most of us ever know about what is going on on the other side of the world or dare I say even care? There are so many more incredible music influenced movements and causes there isnt enough paper to write them all...lol

MUSIC is the one tool I believe can do so much just cause it influence on people can move mountains! I mean we change the way we live we where certain clothes, rock different styles and even begin to believe different to be just like our favorite musicians. Music serves as so many of our youths anti-drug (sounds cliche I know) but its so true! Their love for Music takes them off the streets. and into a studio or even their own bedrooms and teaches them how to express what they feel and transport it on paper. So much music touches peoples soul and I cant even begin to tell you the songs and muscians that got me through my darkest days how a simple song saved me from myself! How listening to music and the lyrics and understanding, identifing with an artist made me feel like "Thats exactly how i feel, thats what Im going through! Im not alone...someone else knows exactly what this feels like!" I mean I can go on and on! MUSIC has the power and influence to make anything happen and turn everyones world around! I full heartedly believe in that!

Okay :P Rant over... hahaha till next time!

Mwah!
Miguelina

Haunted

Come herePretty please Can you tell me where I am You won't you say something. I need to get my bearings. I'm lost And the shadows keep on changing. And I'm haunted By the lives that I have loved And actions I have hated I'm haunted By the lives that wove the web Inside my haunted head.

Ba da pa pa ba da pa pa...Don't cry,There's always a way. Here in November in this house of leaves We'll pray. Please, I know it's hard to believe. To see a perfect forest. Through so many splintered trees. You and me And these shadows keep on changing. And I'm haunted By the lives that I have loved And actions I have hated. I'm hauntedBy the promises I've made And others I have broken. I'm haunted By the lives that wove the web Inside my haunted head. Hallways... always I'll always want you I'll always need you I'll always love you And I will always miss you.

Ba da pa pa ba da pa pa...Come here No I won't say please. One more look at the ghost Before I'm gonna make it leave. Come here I've got the pieces here. Time to gather up the splinters Build a casket for my tears. I'm haunted(By the lives that I have loved)I'm haunted By the hallways in this tiny room The echos there of me and you. The voices that are carrying this tune.

[Poe - Haunted lyrics]

Retrospective Perspective....

We are all very, very busy. We have emails to answer, planes to catch, and we're constantly reshuffling schedules to squeeze in new meetings each more urgent than the last. But every now and then, we get a signal ... "Life should be more satisfying. Shouldn't it?

Have you ever found yourself counting up the days till the weekend and its only Monday? You start looking for daily random pleasures to reward yourself for getting through another day, ice cream, shopping, going out to dinner. Some people even believe that a two week vacation once a year is enough to keep them feeling happy and fulfilled. Is it right that we have to spend so much time planning our next escape?

When we were small, we blew out the candles on our birthday cakes believing that our hopes and dreams would become real. And when Jiminy Cricket told us to wish upon a star, we all did, atleast once. So when did we stop wishing? When did we start doing the the things we had to do rather then what we wanted to? When did our dreams get burried in the responsibilities of adulthood?

Now we sense that thier is something we need to change but are way to busy to stop and think about what it is. You long for those forgotten times when each days accomplishments filled you with joy and excitment, when you embrassed life with energy and enthusiasm.
When thier were a million special days.... Your first day of school, the night before your fifth birthday, summer vacation, your first kiss, all these were special momentous achievments that mad you feel almost giddy inside! But now you sometimes feel as though your stuck in a great big rut and as the years go by the rut just gets deeper and deeper. You sense loss, and that you were ment to do more. And your dreams feel so far away and always seem to be just out of reach.

"But they are silly dreams" you tell yourself . "Get Real." After all you have a job. You're earning a living. You have responsibilities you can't go off chasing crazy dreams! Besides its scary to think about going out on a limb.

But the dreams just wont go away they keep popping up! If only dreams came with a guarentee. Then you'd be as secure as you are now! You're job is secure right?

Wouldn't it just be awful to live your whole life and then say... "Wait! I need another chance! I just wanted to try this one thing!"

Remember how scared you were to take the training wheels of your bike? Or how much courage it took for that first kiss?

Nothing stopped you then? So what's stopping you now?!

Mwah!
Miguelina

Because....

Because.. there are people put in this world to prove to you everything you once thought about yourself could possiably be wrong. The things you once sought out not so important...and the things you never imagined you might want are exactly what you need.

Because.. there are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad. Afraid, Confused, without a road map. The choices we make in those moments could define the rest of our days. Of course when faced with the unknown most of us prefer to turn around and go back. I know I do sometimes. But, once in awhile people push into something better. Something found just beyond the pain of going at it alone and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in or to give a second chance. Something beyond the quite persistence of a dream. Because I believe it is only when we are tested that we truly discover who we are. And it is only when we are tested that we discover who we can be. The person we want to be does exist somewhere on the other side of hard work, faith, and belief. Beyond heartache, and fear of what lies ahead of us. Ever look at a picture of yourself and see a stranger in the background? It makes me wonder how many strangers have pictures of me? How many moments of other peoples lives have I been in? Was I a part of the picture that defined the moment in this strangers life that his/her dreams came true? or the moment they died? Did I keep trying to get in as if some how I was meant to be there? Or did the shot catch me by surprise? Just think you could be a big part of someonelse's life and not even know it.............

Mwah!
Miguelina

[Woke up feeling completely random and I dont know maybe what Im feeling might speak to someone .. plus.. it helps me feel better when I share :) ]